hmm. interesting…
seems like someone found this page? but this was supposed to be a secret page that only i know about. oh well, i guess cat’s out of the bag now. this page is just a private page for myself (and also sort of a test page for the generator), and eventually may very well be deleted. but for now, enjoy this random text that i wrote to fill up space on the page.
if we haven’t met before by the way, i’m dasho (duh… says it all over this site). i have been around for a while, programming here and chatting there. a little irc, a little php, that sort of thing. i have a bit of a habit of starting projects and then abandoning them, but i have a few that i’m still working on. some juicy secret ones that i can’t talk about yet.
i like working on secret things. it’s fun to have a project that only i know about, and then one day just drop it on everyone. it’s like a little surprise for the world. and who doesn’t like surprises? now, i appreciate the self-centered nature of that statement, and i by no means think what i produce is anything worthy of being surprised about. truth be told, half the time i don’t really understand fully what i’m doing with my projects, i just sort of hack away at them until they do something interesting. but that’s part of the fun, right? yes, you see, i amn’t by any means that good of a programmer. there always seems to be some sort of gap between what i want to do and what i can actually do, and that gap is what i find fun to work in. it’s like a puzzle that i’m trying to solve, and the solution is always just out of reach. but when i do finally solve it, it’s a great feeling. it’s like i’ve unlocked a new level of understanding (probably why i like working on secret projects, because then i can have that feeling of unlocking a new level of understanding all to myself, without having to worry about what other people think of it).
since i’m shitting on myself here a little, another thing i want to say is that i have a bit of a habit of overcomplicating things. i like to make things as complex as possible, even when it’s not necessary. i’m a very ambitious coder and a lot of the projects i start try to solve more problems than they need to. inevitably, this can lead to me getting overwhelmed and abandoning the project, but more concerningly, if i do stick with it, the code is normally a complete mess and just plain bad. poor memory management, oceanic depths of nesting, hardcoded values everywhere, you name it. i’m amazed my projects even work at all, but somehow they do. you would think at this stage, given i open source everything, that someone would have called me out on it by now, but no one has, so i guess it’s just something that people have come to expect from me. i don’t really mind it, it’s just how i work. and like i said before, the gap between what i want to do and what i can actually do is part of the fun for me, so if that means my code is a mess, then so be it. i do try my best to keep it as clean as possible, so others can build on top of it, but sometimes the ambition just gets the best of me.
i guess that’s all i have to say for now. if you made it this far, thanks for reading my ramblings. maybe one day i’ll come back and edit this page to be something more interesting, but for now, it’s just a little glimpse into my mind. enjoy!